Thank you to those who have supported us in so many different ways, you know who you are. We are forever grateful. The outpouring support and love has just instilled in Bryan and I how we want to treat others and share the love and support like we have received.
I have still been struggling to put into words our story. One thing I know for sure is that God truly had this all planned out. I look back at the years of trying to get pregnant, the negative pregnancy tests, the awful depressive feelings after IVF failed twice. I look back and can see that God wasn't doing this to punish us, its because he knew what would be better for us. He knew that adoption was apart of our journey, he knew that Shane was going to be born and need a home. I literally tear up and have moments of catch my breath crying because I don't feel like we deserve Shane. He is by far the best thing that has ever happened in Bryan & I's life. He is the sweetest, funniest, and most handsome boy we have ever met, and for us to call him ours is truly overwhelming and crazy amazing. God knew we needed those hard times in order to truly appreciate what we have now.
If we can share our story and spread hope, thats another reason we know we went through what we did. We have been able to help so many people with infertility stories of struggle and wanting to give up. To be able to share faith and hope is truly amazing and we are so thankful for our journey.
With Mothers Day coming up on Sunday, I have spent the last week praying and being truly grateful for the amazing women in my life who are "mom". My mom is one of my best friends and I am so thankful we got to make her Nana. She is an amazing example of what a mom truly is. She has always been here for us and always knows what to say. Many parental relationships can be hard, but I am thankful for the relationship I have with my mom. I hope I am half the mother my mom was to me and my 2 siblings. So thankful that Shane gets to have her in his life and hear her voice and feel her love from a distance! I am thankful for my mother in law, aunts, cousins, and grandmas who have all played such a motherly role in my life. I am forever grateful.
Now to get to spend my first mothers day I am beyond excited, but I am also guarded as I remember the sad feelings I had the last couple years on this day. The longing to be a mother and to be reminded that I wasn't a mother was so devastating. I want those out their struggling to know that your time will come. Continue to put your faith in God and know that his plan is far greater then our own and it will all be worth it. I know its cliche to say it, but I TRULY believe it. You are loved, You are SOOO LOVED!
To Shane,
I am the luckiest mommy in the world because I have you. I promise to love you and tell you I love you every single day. I promise to smile and tell you how handsome you are! I promise to kiss your boo boos and be there for you every step of the way on your journey! You can do anything little man!
Love--your mommy <3
